Graduated!!!

Well, I have now finished school!! I will finish up my testing this week and then on to the state boards to become an official Master Esthetician!! You know, this should be a happy time in my life! I should be thrilled!! But, for some reason, it just doesn't feel like I have accomplished anything! Why you may ask! For many reasons... Maybe it's because of all of my family, my grandma seems to be the only one who cares! Or could it be that the man that I have been hoping would sweep me off my feet, blew me off for sushi with friends instead of celebrating! Or could it be that I've been asking to be released from my calling for 3 months now, and now that I'm graduated, the bishop really doesn't want to release me. The one day that I want people to be happy for me, I only had 3 people even celebrate with me!!
My dearest friend Kariann, (and Brynlee of course!), took me out to lunch!! The whole time we talked about how she was so excited for me and what my next plans were. Kariann was so excited for me and she took the time out of her busy life to show me she cared!
Then my dear friend Kenna!! She was just so excited and insisted on taking me out.... This Wednesday will be our day of fun! She also took the time out of her busy life to help me celebrate!
Grandma.... need I say more! I love her so dearly! For weeks she has been asking me what I want for graduation. Honestly, I just want someone to be there when I get my diploma! (Everyone will be on a cruise.) But, as my best friend, she wanted to make sure that my day was special! Even though I told her she didn't have to get anything, she did, and it's on it's way.

So, here is where I really don't care anymore about graduating! I know that it is a huge accomplishment on my part! And honestly I'm so happy about finishing school and acheiving this! But, my mom and dad haven't even done anything! I got a text from both saying congrats, but really... they haven't said much other than that! Not dinner, no hug, no card, no gift (not that that's important, but it acknowledges I did something)...... NOTHING! I thought to myself, "Maybe Sunday they will do something!" Who was I joking! Paul's home! So, all attention goes on him!! We sat at dinner and talked all about him. I even tried to say something about what I'm going to do now and they all just ignored the comment. So, again!! Everything is centered around this brother of mine! This brother who makes so much money, this brother who is running the marathon with my mom, this brother who is buying a boat, this brother who is sooooo successful! It may sound like I'm jealous, and to some extent I am. But, I am so sick and tired about it being the "PAUL SHOW" whenever he comes home!! I'm not trying to be self centered, but what about me!
I know it seems kind-of a cop-out to go to beauty school, but it's what I love!! Honestly, I think the only time my mom supports me in it, is when she gets to bennefit from it! But, even at that, she doesn't think I know what I'm talking about when I tell her things about her skin or hair! Paul.... yeah he knows it all and won't let me do anything for him. My dad... whatever makes me happy, but he's too busy to take any real interest. Of all of them, my dad is the one who is the most supportive!

So, to end my bitch session.... I've graduated! I am a soon-to-be Master Esthetician! I can't wait to have my license and to be moving far away!! Kariann and Kenna... I love you guys and you will always be close to me no matter how far away I am!! Maybe this distance will make my family love me more! Or atleast want me around more! Wow! The pressure to be successful and follow in Paul's steps may be even more though! Oh well! There is someone out there who will think the world of me!..... Or atleast I hope!!

Until next time.... Adios Amigos!!

Changes...

Well, I don't know what I did to get on Brenda's (Cameo owner) good side, but I sure as heck will take it!! To clue you all in to what I am talking about, I will have to start at the beginning...
About a month or so ago, I was sitting in church contemplating wheither I should move to Las Vegas, Colorado, or somewhere else while at church. While pondering each one, I had this little voice come at me and put "The East Coast" into my mind. I blew it off and went home. Again, this little birdie kept at me. So, that night, I finally entertaining the idea!! I didn't know where to begin!! I mean, there are like 15 states on the east coast! You think he could've been a little less broad and a little more specific!! :)
So, I started with New York... didn't really find anything attractive and wasn't sure if I really wanted to live there. Next I looked somewhere that I have had on my mind for years, Maryland. Immediately I found the ideal job!! I looked at it for hours and found how to apply. It all seemed so easy!! I looked at a few other places, but the one kept calling me.
That next week I e-mailed Brenda for help on my resume and told her about my new found desire for the east coast. To my surprise, later that week she had responses for me about jobs on the east coast. I researched the options she gave me and was lead to a lady who only wanted to offer me help in getting a job and helping me with my licensure. How did I luck out to have Brenda help me in so many ways!!!
I have begun my research and journey now in finding a job. My area of particular interest is now Maryland. I am not too sure why that is where I feel I am being lead. Everything just seems to be falling into place to move there! I don't know what is in store for me out there or why I am feeling like I am being lead to go out there. But, I do know that I want to be somewhere where the church is strong!! I know that I am ready for a big change as well!! And I know that where ever the wind leads me to, I will be happy and there is something in store for me there!
So, my journey begins!! I will keep you all posted! I will let you all in on my journey and let you know what I will be doing!! Keep me in your thoughts and prayers as I make these next few changes and decisions!! I love you all!!