Okay, okay, okay!! So, it's been a few months since I've updated my life and I'm getting it from a lot of people!! So much has changed in the last little while!!! If you ever go to my singles ward blog, you'll notice that when I do have the time, I spend it updating that blog instead of my own! So, I'll give a brief update to the things in my life!!
We'll start out with the love life. Bryan and I have ended things completely! It's funny, with every day that goes by, things get easier and I wonder to myself why I stayed in that situation for so long! He's a great guy and I will always love him and he will always have a special place in my heart. But, sometimes people come in your life for what you may think is going to be a life time and for reasons that we may not know yet, they leave and leave tidbits of love and lessons behind. With this, I have made a lot of changes in my life!! With the help of loving friends, family, and leaders, I have searched and begun to find what it is that is important to me and what I want in my life!! Had things gone differently with Bryan, I don't know if I would be at this place in my life or not!!
On my Birthday, I went on my first date in 4 years!! It was great, but it was the lessons and things that I took away from that date that I am eternally greatful for!! The guy, Dustin, showed me what I deserved, how I am to be treated, and most of all, who I am to be!! From that day forward, I have strived to live the Gospel more fully and work on the "Real important" things of life!! I've gotten more self-confidence, self-love, and have realized who I am and what I want to be!!
I decided to go back to school (with a push from God) and am now attending UVU (Utah Valley University)!!! I am going back to my life long dream of Forensic Science and am so excited!!! I love going to class and learning!!!! I was really nervous about going, but soon learned why I am suppose to be there and know that through God, He has made it possible for me to go!! I even got a Pel Grant this year and it paid for all of it!!!!!
As for the current love life, I do have a few possibilities in the mix!! For a while I didn't care much about dating!! Still don't really!!! But, it's interesting that when you focus less on the things that your heart really wants, God seems to bless you with them!!! I've met a few guys and hang out with them that I am really interested in right now!! I used to laugh at people when they would say that they were attracted to someone's spirit and how they could see that and I would think to myself, "Ya right! No one can see that!" But, it wasn't until now that I totally know what they have been talking about this whole time!! One of the guys I can totally see his spirituallity and I LOVE it!!! It's so amazing to be able to see that in people!! The other guy is fun, but I'm just not sure what is going to happen!!! I'm looking forward to getting to know these guys and hopefully more!!
Lastly, but not least, I have lost 15 pounds!! I'm still not to where I would like to be and am starting my diet again next week!! I will definately get pictures up here soon! I can't believe how much better I feel!! Not only my self-esteem, but how my body feels!!! It's great!!!
Well, I promise to do better and to try and keep everyone updated on my life!! If anyone knows of a job opening, I need a new one!!! Also, wish me luck!! :) Love you all!!!
Wednesday, September 9, 2009
Wednesday, March 25, 2009
Where Does Time Go?!?
Wow! I've looked at my blog breifly the last few weeks and keep thinking to myself that I need to update it!! I was so excited because I found this way cute St. Patty's day layout and was going to use it, but seeing how it's past and I seem to never get on here anymore, I decided to go with a more springy layout!! (Partly because I am determined to push winter out!) Anyway, with all my good intentions, I guess it's just not enough!! Life seems to come at you so fast that the next minute you're turning around to it being days later than what you thought!
This past month has been sooo busy!! I love my new job!! It's been so fun to go all over Utah and meet awesome people! There has been some frustration, but I know that comes mostly with training and a new job!! I love that I am working so much now and I don't feel like I am just wasting time!! It's a relief to know that I can pay my bills!! The down side to all of this, I don't feel like I have a life anymore!! If I'm not at work, I'm either home rewinding down from the day, helping around the house, running errands, or working on my ward's blog!! Who knew blogs could take soooo much time!! Seriously though, I feel like I am sooo busy now and time is just flying by!! It's great, but I just hope I don't miss life's big adventures!!
It's crazy how you meet people too!! I feel like this last month has just been a re-connecting month!! I've ran into people I haven't seen in years!! I love it!! I've done a lot of thinking (since that's what I get to do when I sit in a car for hours on end each day!) and have ahd a chance to ponder alot of things! One being how God puts people in your life at certain moments!! I know that it is to give you growing times!! I feel like I have had a lot of chances to learn and grow over this last month!! You look at yourself one day and realize how much you have changed and look at who you used to be! Many of you probably have seen/heard these changes!! I think I was in a rut for so long and I am just getting back to normal!! I used to be this hyper, giggly, happy person and then I feel to a ball of tard!! Over the last few months I feel like I am getting back to my self!! I feel happy and laugh a lot more than I used to!! Little things just don't seem to matter anymore!! Life is great!! I had my friend Jake comment last night that he like me better the way I am now then when he first met me. I love that!!
Anyway, I need to go and get ready for a wonderful day! We are going to a blood drive in West Jordan today! I will do my best to keep up on the updates and my life! But, if I seem to lack behind, just take a look at all my hard work on my ward's blog and know that my little time I spend on the computer now is all spent on that "damn" (pardon the french!) blog!! Don't get me wrong, I love it, but I want my time! I don't want to always be working on it!! Oh well! The Lord will bless me!! Love you all and keep up the smiles!!
This past month has been sooo busy!! I love my new job!! It's been so fun to go all over Utah and meet awesome people! There has been some frustration, but I know that comes mostly with training and a new job!! I love that I am working so much now and I don't feel like I am just wasting time!! It's a relief to know that I can pay my bills!! The down side to all of this, I don't feel like I have a life anymore!! If I'm not at work, I'm either home rewinding down from the day, helping around the house, running errands, or working on my ward's blog!! Who knew blogs could take soooo much time!! Seriously though, I feel like I am sooo busy now and time is just flying by!! It's great, but I just hope I don't miss life's big adventures!!
It's crazy how you meet people too!! I feel like this last month has just been a re-connecting month!! I've ran into people I haven't seen in years!! I love it!! I've done a lot of thinking (since that's what I get to do when I sit in a car for hours on end each day!) and have ahd a chance to ponder alot of things! One being how God puts people in your life at certain moments!! I know that it is to give you growing times!! I feel like I have had a lot of chances to learn and grow over this last month!! You look at yourself one day and realize how much you have changed and look at who you used to be! Many of you probably have seen/heard these changes!! I think I was in a rut for so long and I am just getting back to normal!! I used to be this hyper, giggly, happy person and then I feel to a ball of tard!! Over the last few months I feel like I am getting back to my self!! I feel happy and laugh a lot more than I used to!! Little things just don't seem to matter anymore!! Life is great!! I had my friend Jake comment last night that he like me better the way I am now then when he first met me. I love that!!
Anyway, I need to go and get ready for a wonderful day! We are going to a blood drive in West Jordan today! I will do my best to keep up on the updates and my life! But, if I seem to lack behind, just take a look at all my hard work on my ward's blog and know that my little time I spend on the computer now is all spent on that "damn" (pardon the french!) blog!! Don't get me wrong, I love it, but I want my time! I don't want to always be working on it!! Oh well! The Lord will bless me!! Love you all and keep up the smiles!!
Thursday, February 5, 2009
Life and It's Changes!!
It's so interesting how life changes so much! One minute you look at it and you're one place and the next you're in a totally different place! I look at my friends and see how different they have turned out and how different their lives are from what I thought they would! Then, I look at where I was and where I am now and where I thought I would be! It's so crazy to see how life can change sooo much!!
A few years ago I guess my friends would've looked at me and thought to set me up with a rough, tough, rebble kind of guy! I guess that is what I was putting off and honestly, I was kinda looking for that adventure! I was in that stage where I wanted an "adventure"! I thought that I didn't need that clean cut, church guy! Funny thing is... some of my friends still think that's what I want! See, back then I didn't care if they had tattoos, piercings, drank, or much anything else! Drugs were a no, but even at that... Look at Jerae! But, as life (and me) has made it's changes, those things are of much concern now! And, for most of you who know me, know that I don't want those things!! I care more now about how they treat me, if they are worthy of the temple and hold the priesthood, prefer no tattoos (but, understand we all have a past!), don't put up with crap, and definately want a church going man!!
Now, you all may wonder where all this is going! I promise, I have a point! I had a family friend want to set me up tonight! Funny thing is, she hasn't really been around for the last year or so! So, she wants to set me up with this guy from college and she tells me that he's "skinny, has piercings, tattoos, but is a really nice guy! But, no one takes a second look because of his appearance." I know this is judgemental, but I'm not too fond of going on a date with this guy because of this description! I can deal with the skinny and the tattoos! I mean, he could've had a rebel stage and did them then. But, the earrings is my throw-off! I guess by this, it leads me to think that he really isn't into the church. Aside all the other things, if he was doing it, he wouldn't be wearing them. So, I'm just surprised that she would think of me to set him up with! Let alone think of what I want!! So, I guess it's just got me thinking of life's changes and the changes we all make!
Along with all this I was thinking of Paul! I asked him tonight if he would go to Nina's gymnastics meet with me tomorrow night. All my friends who said they would go bailed on me. I really want to go, but have no one to go with! So, I figured he would go with me! Honestly, I knew he'd say no! But, deep down inside I was hoping and just thinking that this once he might say yes to hanging out with me! I feel like we are sooo close, yet so far away! We talk real deep, but when it comes to hanging out with his sister.... he's just not in to it! I really want to go out with him this summer, but honestly think he will just avoid it because he doesn't want me around! So, when I asked him about going... you guessed it, he said no! He's going to Wendover! Seriously! Let's go loose money instead of hanging out with your sister! He actually said that I should've let him know sooner and he would've gone! Doubt it! It's just so hard because I used to think that he wanted to hang out with me! But, as life goes on, I feel like we talk less and less and he doesn't want to come around anymore!! I wonder how long it would take to have him call me if I never called him!! The thing is.... I can't wait that long to see! Every time I try, I cave and call him cause I miss him soooo much!!! I wish he would quit trying to buy me too!! I would rather have a day with him than any present!!
Anyway, I could keep puttting my feelings out there, but it wouldn't get me anywhere! I just have learned that life is a continuing change and you never know what to expect!! I just hope that in years, people will look at me and think that I am as good if not even better than today! I hope that people look at me and my example and want to know more about the church and when they look at me, that's what they see! I'm glad for all these changes!!! Whether good or bad, that's what makes me who I am!! Love you all! Thanks for being apart of my ever changing life!!!
A few years ago I guess my friends would've looked at me and thought to set me up with a rough, tough, rebble kind of guy! I guess that is what I was putting off and honestly, I was kinda looking for that adventure! I was in that stage where I wanted an "adventure"! I thought that I didn't need that clean cut, church guy! Funny thing is... some of my friends still think that's what I want! See, back then I didn't care if they had tattoos, piercings, drank, or much anything else! Drugs were a no, but even at that... Look at Jerae! But, as life (and me) has made it's changes, those things are of much concern now! And, for most of you who know me, know that I don't want those things!! I care more now about how they treat me, if they are worthy of the temple and hold the priesthood, prefer no tattoos (but, understand we all have a past!), don't put up with crap, and definately want a church going man!!
Now, you all may wonder where all this is going! I promise, I have a point! I had a family friend want to set me up tonight! Funny thing is, she hasn't really been around for the last year or so! So, she wants to set me up with this guy from college and she tells me that he's "skinny, has piercings, tattoos, but is a really nice guy! But, no one takes a second look because of his appearance." I know this is judgemental, but I'm not too fond of going on a date with this guy because of this description! I can deal with the skinny and the tattoos! I mean, he could've had a rebel stage and did them then. But, the earrings is my throw-off! I guess by this, it leads me to think that he really isn't into the church. Aside all the other things, if he was doing it, he wouldn't be wearing them. So, I'm just surprised that she would think of me to set him up with! Let alone think of what I want!! So, I guess it's just got me thinking of life's changes and the changes we all make!
Along with all this I was thinking of Paul! I asked him tonight if he would go to Nina's gymnastics meet with me tomorrow night. All my friends who said they would go bailed on me. I really want to go, but have no one to go with! So, I figured he would go with me! Honestly, I knew he'd say no! But, deep down inside I was hoping and just thinking that this once he might say yes to hanging out with me! I feel like we are sooo close, yet so far away! We talk real deep, but when it comes to hanging out with his sister.... he's just not in to it! I really want to go out with him this summer, but honestly think he will just avoid it because he doesn't want me around! So, when I asked him about going... you guessed it, he said no! He's going to Wendover! Seriously! Let's go loose money instead of hanging out with your sister! He actually said that I should've let him know sooner and he would've gone! Doubt it! It's just so hard because I used to think that he wanted to hang out with me! But, as life goes on, I feel like we talk less and less and he doesn't want to come around anymore!! I wonder how long it would take to have him call me if I never called him!! The thing is.... I can't wait that long to see! Every time I try, I cave and call him cause I miss him soooo much!!! I wish he would quit trying to buy me too!! I would rather have a day with him than any present!!
Anyway, I could keep puttting my feelings out there, but it wouldn't get me anywhere! I just have learned that life is a continuing change and you never know what to expect!! I just hope that in years, people will look at me and think that I am as good if not even better than today! I hope that people look at me and my example and want to know more about the church and when they look at me, that's what they see! I'm glad for all these changes!!! Whether good or bad, that's what makes me who I am!! Love you all! Thanks for being apart of my ever changing life!!!
Sunday, February 1, 2009
Blogging 101....
Okay, so it's been a while since I last blogged!! I guess life gets a hold of you and takes off before you know it! December I had a lot of time on my hands! I didn't really work, so I had a lot of time to write! Once January picked up though, I honestly forgot all about this! So, let me give you a few updates on my life! Where to start!!...
Let's start with the job! Well, I've done great with getting the profit up with swimming lessons! I went from being in the hole $200 in October, to $5,500 profit after expenses are all paid! Despite this amazing outcome and continuing rise in profit (expecting $8-$9,000 this session), my boss's decided that I wasn't doing the best and cut my hours! So, I now am suppose to get everything I do done in 12 hours a week! Unfortunately I can not make a living at this rate, so I have started to look for another job! I find out the surity of a job at the Red Cross Blood Services tomorrow, but am pretty sure that I have the job! Despite how much money it will be, I'm kinda still hesitant about it.... But that story is for another day! For now I am just doing updates! Anyway, I will keep you all posted in the job situation!!
Next I guess is the Bryan situation! We have talked alot and started hanging out again! Am I happy? I was! When it all began I saw him changing to what I've always seen in him! He was happy, determined, excited about the church... But, now he doesn't seem all that happy! I wonder what's going on inside of him!? It seems as if he has lost faith! I don't think he goes to church anymore and I don't think he is all to concerned about it! In talking with a friend about it, we came to the conclusion that he is not happy within himself and is lashing out at those who care because he wants what they have... You know the whole "misery loves company" thing? I feel bad because I want to help him and know that he is struggling, but at the same time I don't want to continue to have him bring me down! Oh well, I will continue to be strong and keep looking for Mr. Right! If Bryan is the one, then I guess time will tell!! I just hope he can find that happiness again!!
My spiritual well-being.... I honestly haven't been so happy! There are definately things that are stressing me out and weighing me down, but those are things that I can fix within myself! I've set some goals for the new year and am soooo excited to reach them!! One of which I would like to mention is my goal to understand the church more!! A few months ago, when I was looking at Maryland, I was worried on how I was going to tell people about the church when I was asked. Honestly, I don't know who told me this, but I decided the best way to tell people was to know and understand the Articles of Faith!! This is my goal this year! To have them memorized and to know why we have them! I am sooo excited and have already learned so much already!! I am doing really good too at going to the Temple once a month!! Although, I think it might be what hurt my back a week ago! But, I really enjoy that time and wish it wasn't so short!!
Well, I guess I don't have a ton of updates, but I do!! There are sooo many things that I want to tell you all about, but will have to wait for another day!! So, here is the biggest update!!!..... Amy took Blogging 101 from McKenna!!! That's right Kenna! I'm giving you all the credit!! LOL!! My ward gave me a new calling! Honestly I think it's lame and they couldn't come up with anything else, but whatever! My calling is over the face board and our ward blog! So, they wanted me to do all these cute things to the page and I had NO IDEA!!! I didn't set up my page!! I just let Whitney do it and called it good! Hence the non-creative things on my page!! Anyway, poor Kenna had to walk me through just about every single thing I did on the page! But, I would have to say, It looks pretty darn good!! You will all have to check it out!! So, I thank Kenna for the help and you all should too!! Now you can come to my page and know that I actually can do things to it!! I'm not sold on the background, but thought it would do for Valentines!!!
Well, I'm going to go! I've now sat on the computer for nearly 6 hours messing around with blogs!! My back is still hurting, my cramps are coming back (Good hell! It sucks to be a woman! And I don't even have a period!), and my eyes are starting to hurt!! Oh!!! MY EYES!!! I forgot that update!! Well, I finally got my eyeliner tatooed on!! Not quite sure how I like it!! I think I want to go thicker on the one side on the bottom to even it up and definately thicker on the top!!! Anyway, I will show pics soon!! Too tired to mess with them tonight!! Anyway, I promise I will be better!
Also.... Retard here deleted all my stuff on accident! So, if you don't see your blog on here, will you message me so I can have it? Also, if you think I need someone else's let me know too! It's funny, the more I sit here, the more updates I have!! I guess I will have to write a ton here in the next few weeks to tell you all about it! Until then, keep smiling, writing, and praying!! Love you all!! Thanks for your friendships!!!
Let's start with the job! Well, I've done great with getting the profit up with swimming lessons! I went from being in the hole $200 in October, to $5,500 profit after expenses are all paid! Despite this amazing outcome and continuing rise in profit (expecting $8-$9,000 this session), my boss's decided that I wasn't doing the best and cut my hours! So, I now am suppose to get everything I do done in 12 hours a week! Unfortunately I can not make a living at this rate, so I have started to look for another job! I find out the surity of a job at the Red Cross Blood Services tomorrow, but am pretty sure that I have the job! Despite how much money it will be, I'm kinda still hesitant about it.... But that story is for another day! For now I am just doing updates! Anyway, I will keep you all posted in the job situation!!
Next I guess is the Bryan situation! We have talked alot and started hanging out again! Am I happy? I was! When it all began I saw him changing to what I've always seen in him! He was happy, determined, excited about the church... But, now he doesn't seem all that happy! I wonder what's going on inside of him!? It seems as if he has lost faith! I don't think he goes to church anymore and I don't think he is all to concerned about it! In talking with a friend about it, we came to the conclusion that he is not happy within himself and is lashing out at those who care because he wants what they have... You know the whole "misery loves company" thing? I feel bad because I want to help him and know that he is struggling, but at the same time I don't want to continue to have him bring me down! Oh well, I will continue to be strong and keep looking for Mr. Right! If Bryan is the one, then I guess time will tell!! I just hope he can find that happiness again!!
My spiritual well-being.... I honestly haven't been so happy! There are definately things that are stressing me out and weighing me down, but those are things that I can fix within myself! I've set some goals for the new year and am soooo excited to reach them!! One of which I would like to mention is my goal to understand the church more!! A few months ago, when I was looking at Maryland, I was worried on how I was going to tell people about the church when I was asked. Honestly, I don't know who told me this, but I decided the best way to tell people was to know and understand the Articles of Faith!! This is my goal this year! To have them memorized and to know why we have them! I am sooo excited and have already learned so much already!! I am doing really good too at going to the Temple once a month!! Although, I think it might be what hurt my back a week ago! But, I really enjoy that time and wish it wasn't so short!!
Well, I guess I don't have a ton of updates, but I do!! There are sooo many things that I want to tell you all about, but will have to wait for another day!! So, here is the biggest update!!!..... Amy took Blogging 101 from McKenna!!! That's right Kenna! I'm giving you all the credit!! LOL!! My ward gave me a new calling! Honestly I think it's lame and they couldn't come up with anything else, but whatever! My calling is over the face board and our ward blog! So, they wanted me to do all these cute things to the page and I had NO IDEA!!! I didn't set up my page!! I just let Whitney do it and called it good! Hence the non-creative things on my page!! Anyway, poor Kenna had to walk me through just about every single thing I did on the page! But, I would have to say, It looks pretty darn good!! You will all have to check it out!! So, I thank Kenna for the help and you all should too!! Now you can come to my page and know that I actually can do things to it!! I'm not sold on the background, but thought it would do for Valentines!!!
Well, I'm going to go! I've now sat on the computer for nearly 6 hours messing around with blogs!! My back is still hurting, my cramps are coming back (Good hell! It sucks to be a woman! And I don't even have a period!), and my eyes are starting to hurt!! Oh!!! MY EYES!!! I forgot that update!! Well, I finally got my eyeliner tatooed on!! Not quite sure how I like it!! I think I want to go thicker on the one side on the bottom to even it up and definately thicker on the top!!! Anyway, I will show pics soon!! Too tired to mess with them tonight!! Anyway, I promise I will be better!
Also.... Retard here deleted all my stuff on accident! So, if you don't see your blog on here, will you message me so I can have it? Also, if you think I need someone else's let me know too! It's funny, the more I sit here, the more updates I have!! I guess I will have to write a ton here in the next few weeks to tell you all about it! Until then, keep smiling, writing, and praying!! Love you all!! Thanks for your friendships!!!
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